Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Trusting Today

Eight months ago, God called me to have faith to believe that nothing is impossible with Him.

And I believed.

Seven months ago, God called me to put my faith into action by going before the elders of our church to pray for David’s healing in accordance with James 5.

And I went.

Six months ago, my precious David was born into this world to live for seven sweet hours after which God took him from my arms.

And I questioned.

Why did God call me to believe Him and ask Him for the impossible when He already knew that the answer to my prayers would be “no”? How can I ever really trust Him again?

I am still questioning.

This morning, the 6-month anniversary of my sweet David’s birth, I crawled out of bed to begin another day … without David. I began praying one of the only prayers that I know how to pray these days, which is The Lord’s Prayer. I figured that it must be a good one since Jesus is the author.

When I got to the part of the prayer that says, “Give us this day our daily bread,” I started to make a mental checklist of all of the things that I thought I needed to get through the day. And then it hit me like a ton of bricks – trust was on the list.

Trusting in God is part of my daily bread.

I may not be able to say that I trust God with the rest of my life right now because I have no idea what He has in store, and I'm not sure if I'm going to like it. But, I think that I can trust Him just for today.

And maybe my trust in Him today is all that He requires.

4 comments:

  1. Happy Birthday, David...

    Rachael,

    Oh, how my heart breaks for you still. Trying to make sense of God's ways and trust Him in spite of them is such a daily struggle...May He continue to be your strength and hope...

    Much Love,

    Rachel
    Psalm 77

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  2. One day at a time. One hour at a time. One minute at a time. I know it still hurts so bad. I'm thankful that I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I'm also thankful to know that God is in control of whatever it may be. Remembering David with you. Praying for you. Holding onto hope with you. Love you!

    Tonya

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  3. I'm so glad God isn't upset by your questioning. Load it on Him, His shoulders are big enough. He will carry you through.

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  4. Trusting with you....trusting for peace to fill your heart and for moments where you aren't afraid to hope.

    Sending love to you

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