Trusting Today

Eight months ago, God called me to have faith to believe that nothing is impossible with Him.

And I believed.

Seven months ago, God called me to put my faith into action by going before the elders of our church to pray for David’s healing in accordance with James 5.

And I went.

Six months ago, my precious David was born into this world to live for seven sweet hours after which God took him from my arms.

And I questioned.

Why did God call me to believe Him and ask Him for the impossible when He already knew that the answer to my prayers would be “no”? How can I ever really trust Him again?

I am still questioning.

This morning, the 6-month anniversary of my sweet David’s birth, I crawled out of bed to begin another day … without David. I began praying one of the only prayers that I know how to pray these days, which is The Lord’s Prayer. I figured that it must be a good one since Jesus is the author.

When I got to the part of the prayer that says, “Give us this day our daily bread,” I started to make a mental checklist of all of the things that I thought I needed to get through the day. And then it hit me like a ton of bricks – trust was on the list.

Trusting in God is part of my daily bread.

I may not be able to say that I trust God with the rest of my life right now because I have no idea what He has in store, and I'm not sure if I'm going to like it. But, I think that I can trust Him just for today.

And maybe my trust in Him today is all that He requires.